Fresh vegetables, fresh soft pretzels, fresh out of the dryer...
A fresh start is also positive. A fresh start usually means something bad happened before. I used to have another blog, which I used mainly as my vent-space. But then I realized that almost every post was full of anger, frustration, and sadness. No way to live life. My life isn't exactly ideal right now...I'm living in a third-world country, where the electricity and water go out regularly, in a room in someone's apartment where six women and seven dogs currently live, and my "home", aka where my parents live, is a cacophony of yelling, fighting, and general negative anger. To get to school, I get in a beat up public car, where there are no less than 2 people in the front seat and 4 people in the back...to a university where my 5 year old cousin knows more than most of my teachers. But alas, most people have it a lot worse than I do, which I usually find to be a pathetic excuse to justify the crap-level of my own life...But in this country, where most of the population live way below the poverty line, you really realize that you have it pretty good.
Sometimes when you see a family of eight living in a tin and cement "house", you feel bad for them, and you can't imagine living in such conditions. However, when you examine closely, you realize that the love that circulates through this home could never compare to an enormous McMansion. That, is the difference between a house, and a home.
I decided that I would be proactive, and make my life better. Start walking more, looking more, and doing what makes ME happy. And who the hell cares what other people think or say. I've decided to be more selfish, and think about ME for once in my life. As long as I don't get shot in the back of the head, who gives a crap?
Eating better, talking to people I would've never spoken to before, exercising, saving money, being nicer...Are all actions contributing to my fresh start
Enjoy this beautiful day, even if it's raining :)
-Massiel
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