Baby Rabies

When I was in high school, I would always say that I never wanted kids, that I was never going to get married, and that I wouldn't even so much as look at a man before I turned thirty.

But now, I've found that my biological is going tick-tick-tick. Loudly. I have baby rabies like no other. I'm obviously not stupid enough to go off and have a baby, as I'm neither in a relationship, nor am I in any kind of position to bring a child into this world.

But that can't stop me from dreaming. I babysit as much as I can, and I know the implications that a baby brings, but that doesn't stop me from looking at adorable baby clothes, strollers, and cribs, imagining what my life as a mommy would be like. But as appealing as mommy life looks, I definitely don't see it without a daddy by my side :)

Like most girls my age, I'm itching to get married, start a life independently from my own family. Not that I want to abandon my own family, but as much as I love my parents, I can't wait to get "another chance". I see it like this:

I saw where my parents went wrong, both in their relationship and as parents. I know what has made me upset, and why I feel unhappy sometimes in my own family. I also know that I will make mistakes, as everyone does, but life, like everything else, has room for improvement. So forming my own family is my way of getting a second chance at a better home life, and perhaps even being a better person.

So I shall keep on looking at baby blogs, and I shall keep on dreaming.

...Because a girl can dream, can't she? :)